Friday, June 3, 2016

and here i come at last...

It has been ages that i wrote or penned down anything. Life has been busy super busy or maybe i made it busy... :-)
Getting married having a beautiful little girl to take care of changes the way you look at the world...pihu has been my biggest strength and my biggest weakness from the moment she came into our lives...Her presence made me brave and i could do things i was super scared to do...at the same time even with the slightest of discomfort she would be in would make me shiver to the bone...
I've tried hard to be the mom that she deserves...there have been trials and errors...sometime a lot more errors than successes but then i'am not a pro in parenting you see...im learning too each day each minute...
There have been times when i felt overwhelmed not knowing if what i was doing was right or wrong...was i being too protective...was i being too strict...was i not feeding her enough....was i forcing her to eat...etc etc...and the list goes on...and thanks to the well wishers around...i have never stopped questioning myself... ;-)
But then there comes a moment in you Momhood when you realize you are pretty much there...you know what you are doing...and that moment comes in when your child turns out to be the kid you imagined him/her to be...My Pihu is that kid...She is someone who has made me realize there is no good or bad way of parenting...there is just one way and it is YOUR way...


Thursday, January 4, 2007

Khoj

Bahut dhoondha maine apne apko…kabhi kisi ke baaton mein…kabhi kisiski aankhon mein…kabhi andhere raat ke sannate mein…kabhi muskurate chaand ki chaandni mein…
Kabhi subah ki pehli kirno mein…kabhi dopahar ki kadakti dhoop mein….bahut dhoondha maine khud ko har bante bikharte sapno mein…
Aaj Ehsaas hua ki nahin hoon main kisiki baton mein…kisiki aankhon mein…na hoon raat ke sannate mein ya chandni mein…main hoon har pal apne aap mein…apno mein…aur apne pyar mein…

Ehsaas

Jab socha haath badakar samet loon unhe apni mutthi mein…reth ki tarah fisal gaye woh aur beh gaye samundar ki gehraiyon mein…
Jab nikal padi unki talash mein tab ehsaas hua kitni akeli thi main…har lamha har pal…
Jab bahut dhoondhne par bhi unke nishaan nahin mile kahin bhi aas paas tab ehsas hua kitne duuuur the woh…
Jab meri awaz nahin pahaunch payee un tak tab ehsas hua ki har seema se pare the woh…
Jab aankhon ne unke intezar mein aansoo bahane se inkar kiya tab ehsas hua woh kahin nahin the ab…
Aaj baith kar jab sochti hoon toh kaamp uthta hai ye dil unke har ehsas se…shayad milne ki aarzoo chupi thi kahin ab…